Found this image on Picturequ❤tes.com and it helped remind me that I am hanging on too tight right now. Work is a roller coaster which spreads its influence on my entire life. I am not over the last cliff of layoffs just a few weeks ago and now new rumors are spreading. Parent company selling part, parts, all....just uncertainty all around. We wring our hands at the lunch table and wonder what the future holds. The drama is deep in its second act and I am exhausted by the play. Let the curtain fall and let me get on with this life for what I am doing now is surviving with the tips of my fingers clinging to the ledge.
Today i declare this my new mantra. I am going to open my grip on anxiety and let life flow. I will dream of my husband stepping up after three years of unemployment. I will find my way to sleeping through the night. I will put my true life in front of me. I will learn how to have a true life. I will use my imagination. I will put one foot in front of the other. I will find a way to make the ends meet. I will open up to possibilities yet undiscovered. I will summon that will to make all happen. With my new book Magical Journey, An Apprenticeship of Contentment, by Katrina Kenison to help me find my way, I can find my way through this and keep it as a new tool to build a life. Like the sketch of our backyard garden and it's new layout, I will put pen to paper and draw the life plan so as to be whole. Remember, "We aren't meant to be perfect, we are meant to whole."
Here's to Monday and another week ahead where I will take a chance. My girlfriend signed up for dancing lessons while confessing to be scared. I will follow her lead and stop lugging the class brochure around and finally enroll in the watercolor class.
Here goes that one foot......